Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Needing prayer

Things are pretty hectic around here. I'm trying to work, finish up my classes, and get ready to leave on Friday morning. I am taking my last final tomorrow morning, and then I'll have a break from classes for about 3 weeks. I am really excited about the mission trip! I have to be at the airport about 4:00 AM!! For those of you who know me well, I am not a morning person and never will be. So that should be interesting, although everyone else is having to get up at about 1:30- so I am better off than them. Please pray for us while we are gone. Pray that God will use us to bring more people to Him and that He will use this experience to change our lives and the way we look at the world. We are commanded to go and I am so excited to have this opportunity to do that.
Good news! I found a professor who is going to sponsor me to do a field study. Basically, it will be a class that only I am in where I will volunteer in the community (something semi related to school psychology) and will earn credit for it. This will be a great experience for me I'm hoping, but will also look good on my applications for graduate school. It will also provide a faculty member who could possibly write a recommendation for me. So I'm very excited about it. All I need to do is pick an agency to volunteer for.
Please also keep my decision about a graduate school in your prayers. This is a big decision that I am trusting God will direct me in. Who knows, it could mean meeting my future husband?! :)

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Victory in Jesus

Jesus said in John 16 I believe, "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! For I have overcome the world." That verse just makes me smile because it is such a victory to know that my Jesus has already defeated this sinful and distorted world. He says that we WILL have trouble. Being a Christian doesn't make you immune to problems and hardships. God never promised an easy life without trials, but what He does promise is that He will get us through whatever comes our way. In fact, He says that His power is made great in our weakness. So when I am weak, then I am strong! It is so true. In our weaknesses, God's glory is shown through the strength that He provides. He is so faithful to us and promises never to give us anything that we cannot handle. Jesus is also able to sympathize with us because he knows what it is like to experience the things that we experience every day. He has been through every trial, been tempted in every way, been hurt, been betrayed, been sad. He truly knows our hearts and the pain that we feel sometimes. But what a blessing to have a God that understands and knwos how to get us through it. He's been there and He knows what's ahead. Who better to give advice and direction than Him? It is just so important to realize how much we need Him and how much comfort and peace He can bring us if we just let Him! My prayer is that others are as encouraged by this as I am.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Gearing Up

I finally got to go to a meeting for my mission trip, so I'm gearing up for that. I can't believe I leave in like a week and a half! I'm very excited but I also have a lot to do before then. I volunteered myself to teach the bible lesson to the kids on Wednesday. So I'm talking about the birth of Jesus and I need an application activity of some sort also. I'm hoping something genius will come to me soon! The trip is going to be great and I am so excited to see what God is going to do. Keep us in your prayers!
The weekend was great- I got so burned. My entire face is literally peeling itself off. It is disgusting and it looks terrible. So don't look at my face for awhile! I've learned my lesson and plan on wearing more sunscreen from now on.
I'm so excited that Tiffane and Carrie are in town and I get to see them tonight. It's been awhile since I got to talk to them and just hang out. They took my old job at the Health Department in Panama City :) They are really sweet girls. I love them!!

Saturday, July 17, 2004

Can I Just Say?

Can I just say that I am incredibly sore today? Because I can hardly move and I think it may have to do with the horribly rough seas yesterday. And for those people who just think I'm being a really was choppy. So although it was fun yesterday, my attempts at tubing and kneeboarding were just painful. And I'm definitely paying for it today. Oh well.
Being in Panama City has been fun, but I just feel like there's things I should be doing. But I brought no homework with me on purpose- I'm not going to do any, and it's great! I finally signed up to take the GRE on October 9, 2004. I can't really back out, so I hope I'm ready by then. I also hope that I only have to take it that one time. Standardized tests...arghh..I really don't like them. Can I just say that I feel like those kind of tests don't really measure what a person knows? I think there should be a test that measures potential to learn and do well in college and not if you already know everything or not. If I already knew everything, I wouldn't be going to college! Maybe I'm being irrational, but that is how I feel about it. Maybe one day, after grad school, I will develop a test that does just what I'm talking about. Stay tuned for that!

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Time to Relax

Well, I just turned in my last paper for the semester and I am so relieved. I'm headed to Panama City tonight after work to hang out with my family. Aunt Deb, Uncle Al, Keith, and Sarah are coming tonight also. We are going to take a boat out tomorrow to do some skiing and knee boarding. I'm so excited- it's been awhile since I've done that. Also, Jennifer M. is coming Saturday to visit. I haven't seen her in over two years, so it's going to be a lot of fun!
Yesterday I had some car trouble...again. Tuesday night my car was locking itself over and over while I was driving home from Bible Study. I thought somebody was in my car! It was weird, so I was going to go get it fixed eventually. Well yesterday morning I drove to work and it didn't do it anymore,I thought, Great! Well lunch time came around and I was starving. I got in my car... and it wouldn't crank. The engine was turning over, it just wasn't starting. So, I had to get it towed to the Chevy place and went there to wait. They said there was a short in the auto theft system, so it was cutting of the fuel supply to the engine. So, Dee Dee came and picked me up and Erin took me back later to get it. Another problem- didn't have cash to pay the towing company. I had to run to the bank and come back. Then another problem- I couldn't find my credit card! So I paid with my check card and then I was freaking out because I had no idea where it was. But no fear, Erin found it in the dryer :) But, despite all the problems, I laughed about it throughout the day because honestly it was kind of funny (just ask my dad, who I talked to a lot yesterday- he thought it was funny too). Oh and I forgot to mention that Tuesday, yeah the day we had that horrible downpour, I left all my windows down! So needless to say, I had a mess and a car that still smells a little funky. HAHAHA That was kind of a long story, but that's how I tell them- with lots of details (my friends can vouch for that- but they like it :))

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

A lesson in coping

I was reading in Romans the other night and a certain verse stuck out to me. It was Romans 12:12 which says, "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." This may seem pretty simple, and it is in many ways, but it has so much depth and meaning to it. In the world today, so many people who are sad and depressed turn to medication and self help books to make them feel better. This verse gave me a lesson in how to cope and deal with the things that life throws my way. I love it how the Bible just has a lesson for all situations in life. First of all, it says to be joyful in hope. I have thought a lot about what that really means. Hope in what? I have hope in my God, the plan he has for my life, His love for me, and that all things are working out for my good. And not only that, but I hope in the day that I will be going home to spend eternity with my Lord! To me, that is something to be more than joyful about. So in the midst of a trial, it is important that I keep that hope in mind, as it puts things in perspective and strengthens me to keep on. Second, be patient in affliction. Patience is a very hard thing for many people, and for me especially when I'm waiting on something. When I am "suffering", I sometimes just wait it out until it is all over. But I don't think that is right. I think being patient is more than just watiting, I think it is about rising up in the midst of a trial and allowing God to teach me. And he always will have a lesson or two for me! And also, be faithful in prayer. Prayer is the most important way to communicate with God. It is especially vital that I maintain that communication during a tough time. I shouldn't just stop talking to my best friend, especially one who knows what the future holds and can give me a peace that "surpasses all understanding." He's always been faithful to me and I should be faithful to Him no matter what I go through. And in verse 13, which I cannot quote of the top of my head right now basically says to get out and help others who are in need. It has been said that depressed individuals who help others recover more quickly (that is not scientific and I have nothing to back it up- my professors would be so proud) But I have experienced it in my own life (no not depression) but the joy that comes from helping others. It is especially helpful when I am sad because it helps take my mind off of myself and my own trivial problems to see the joy that I can help bring to someone else's life. I pray that I will always remember these verses and the lessons God has shown me because I know I'm going to need it throughout all of my life.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Health Report

I had my doctor's appointment with my Rheumatologist this morning. Although I still suffer with the fatigue, headaches, hand tremors, and back pain, she told me she never thought I really had lupus and still doesn't. That is very good news, although I think she thinks I might have some other form of auto immune disease- who knows? But I will continue to trust God with it and know that it will all work out according to his plan. He's always taken care of me!
I'm also meeting with my advisor today to go over my schedule for the fall. I want to make sure I'm taking the right classes so I can graduate in May as planned. I also need to get to know some of the professors so that I will have somebody to ask for recommendations for graduate school :) Hopefully he can give me some insight into what grad schools are the best for School Psychology. Well, I've heard that South Florida is the best, but I don't think I really want to go to Tampa. It's definitely a scary thing not knowing where I'll be a year from now. And I may not know anyone, so finding a roommate is a big factor also. But I have complete faith that it will all work out because I am praying about it and seeking Him for wisdom and direction.

Monday, July 12, 2004

New Adventure

This whole idea of journaling on the internet is new for me. It was suggested to me by a friend (you know who you are) in order to keep in touch. I'm really looking forward to what this will entail. My hope is that this will allow people to see what I'm up to here in Pensacola. I'm away from a lot of my friends and family, so it is very hard to keep up with everybody and keep them all informed. I hope this will make it easier. I also hope to interact with other people and hear their thoughts and ideas. We'll see where this goes...
I am so busy with my two summer classes and working. What happened to real summers, when I could travel and enjoy my time away from everything normal and usual? I think it's what they call the "real world"! It's really not that bad. I only have a few weeks left of classes and then I get a couple of weeks off before the fall semester starts. I am really looking forward to going to Puerto Rico on my mission trip (July 30- August 7). It should be an awesome opportunity to share God's love to those people who need it. I pray that He will prepare my heart, as well as all those going, for what he has in store for us. I'm so excited!
I have a big test tonight as well as a presentation on my research paper. I can't wait until it's over. I spent all weekend, practically, working on those and the paper that is due this Thursday on teenage suicide. I know it will all be fine because I have worked hard on all of it. By the way, it is a beautiful, very hot, day here. God blesses us with such beauty to live in! He so gracious!